忙得很开心又很累的一天。。。

昨晚，因为要给老爸弄些东西，所以就迟睡了一点。。。应该是很迟啦。。。哈哈。。。今天一早，就得醒来，准备和华乐晚会筹委会主席在麦当劳开个小小的会议。。。睡眠时间都没超过5个小时的我。。。懵懵懂懂地去了。。。由于主席有事请耽误了，就迟来了几分钟。。。很闷的关系，我一直在玩露婵的茶。。。太贪玩了，所以有稍微的被热热的茶烫到了。。。得叫露婵还我医药费哦~

不久，主席大驾光临。。。我们的会议，不闷，在严肃里，少不了些小小的好玩插曲。。。当然，我们更开怀大笑。。。我们也谈了不少的话题。。。让我们这三位华乐的“股东”更了解彼此。。。吃了过后，我们就到百盛去找赞助商。。。我们互相推三阻四，因为不敢上前问。。。我们叫主席喽~他呀。。。很无言。。。在上前问之前，他佩戴他所谓会让他变得更严肃的眼镜。。。感觉上，在他们眼里，我们只是战队里小小的小卒。。。所以根本没有把我们当成一回事。。。那位经理助手叫我们写一封公函，然后交给他，再由他来告诉我们他们的答案。。。哼！不用紧。。。我们会让他们大跌眼镜的。。。哈哈

过后，我随露婵去享用她的午餐。。。哈！她好爱吃汉堡哦~我想，下次她生日，我就请她吃汉堡就好了~~ 哈哈。。。过了以后，我们就到最下一层等我妈。。。在我到Dyslexia中心去探望我的几位可爱的小朋友们。。。今天，还好啦。。。没有不愉快的事情发生。。。只是我和伟杰(shannon)的感情增进了不少哦~ 哈哈。。。原本一位很乖巧又很静的他，不善于和我们打交道。。。不过，今天啊，他可是说更我们打成一片哦。。。我啊，简直高兴都来不及。。。能认识多一位可爱小朋友，使我人生的其一很喜悦的事情哦。。。他还叫我去他家在他生日的时候，不过我想我也来不及了啦。。。还有这样长的时间，一定会被遗忘的啦。。。希望他还记得我喽。。。还有，他也很想念恐龙哦。。。一直叫我们下个星期记得带恐龙去。。。想必若恐龙看到这里，应该或多或少有甜甜的微笑吧。。。哈哈。。。

在回家的途中，我简直是仿佛做了一天的粗工，累得不知如何是好。。。露婵回我家。。。我只能躺在沙发上，眼睁睁的看着她和我弟、我妹玩。。。多想直接闭上眼睛，进入我的梦乡。。。她回家后，我就冲个凉，让我自己有精神点。。。不过，却在预料之外，一边观赏电视剧一边睡觉。。。哈哈。。。过后，就没什么啦。。。哦对。。。刚才看了一部新加坡的一部电影。。《小孩不笨2》。。。虽然一直在重复的看着，不过我始终感触良多。。。这就是为什么我喜爱看新加坡的电影和电视剧啦。。。

刚刚打开电脑，看到一玲留给我的讯息。。。就会了她。。。我只能说现在由于我的堂妹们从马六甲远道而回，我不能不跟她们好好的聊一下生活的点点滴滴嘛。。。得陪陪她们。。。毕竟她们回来的时间也不是很长。。。假期有了她们总觉得没有以前那样闷了。。。不过也因为这样，我和我的亲爱的朋友们少了很多的联络。。。因为我不是能很长在大概介于8时到11时开电脑。。。我只能在大概凌晨时开一下罢了。。。我怕距离会越来越遥远。。。没话题沟通时，我就可惨了。。。所以我只能道歉咯。。。在忍多几个星期，我就能恢复平常的作息了。。。嘻嘻。。。那时可别怪我很吵哦。。。哈哈。。。拜！晚安~ :o)

一箩箩的问题。。。

前天，我在担心“他”的问题。。。昨天，“他”的问题已经解决。。。我以为我终于可以放下所有的烦恼、担心，好好享受我的假期。。。就在今天问题又出现了。。。为什么这些问题不会停止出现？？

我明白我的问题没有比他的遭遇坏，不过我只希望这一切能够很顺利。。。但却换来一大堆的问题。。。在前几个星期，我还以为我的问题应该都能解决，能做个了断。。。可是也不是我想象的一样。。。不过，经过他的事，我觉得我得到了很大的启示。。。他既然遇到那么坏的遭遇，却也硬着头皮走过它。。。何况是我的芝麻绿豆小事呢？我想我应该能吧。。。我就得靠我自己咯。。。坚强！不应有悲观的想法！加油！希望我的问题会是山重水复疑无路，柳暗花明有一春喽~

没事做的假期把我折腾得很累很累。。。电视都快给我看到要烂了，却还是满足不了我的闷。。。真搞不懂我要的是什么。。。或许是个能在闷的时候和我讲话的朋友吧。。。不过，我的朋友们啊，都有各自的东西在忙，所以就没办法咯。。。认识我的朋友都懂，当我很闲空，没有东西做时，都会想些有的没的的东西。。。哈哈。。。今天，也没想太多啦。。。只是在为我的问题在烦罢了，在想它几时才能解决。。。几时才能享受无忧无虑休闲的日子？哈哈。。。我想我现在可能是闷到发疯了。。。才会说些有的没的。。。

还有，昨天，看了我扬琴师傅，多利斯的部落格后。。。哇，她华语超好的。。。羡慕死了！昨天，我听说， PMR 的成绩将在圣诞节前公布。。。我的天啊~ 为什么要在那么欢乐的日子前公布？？我要好好的享受我的圣诞节。。。享受过了，公布也还不迟呀。。。海。。。很担心我的国语，不懂靠到怎样。。。应该也没有straight A's 了吧。。。那我的假期应该开开心心的笑。。。因为我怕成绩公布时，就不能笑了。。。

听我的恐龙弟说他和他的哥哥将执行一个很重要又很刺激的任务。。。他这个人啊也真是的，要在那么危险的环境搬家。。。也不想想有多么的危险。。。却还跟我说很好玩，很有趣。。。真的茶点给他气死，吐血。。。不过，我也不能做什么啦。。。就希望那一天他们能够安安全全的完成他们的“重要任务”咯~祝你们好运！！

昨晚，有很多的东西要跟朋友分享。。。可是，看来没人有空。。。可是，不说又睡不着。。。只好一个一个朋友去问。。。刚好，我问“爱猫使者”。。。她说有空。。。可是，很吃亏的，给她作弄了一次又一次。。。哈哈。。。下次，她就懂。。。好奇吧？那我就留到下次才来讲吧。。。哈哈。。。

今天，原本说好要和猴子一起出去的。。。不过，因为没有人载会的问题，我们被逼取消。。。下次再去。。。留在家里，玩电脑。。。这是我第一次用华语写部落格。。。感觉还不错。。。只是得花上更多的时间。。。写的也够多了吧。。。只能说有再多的问题，只要乐观的面对，就会好过些。。。对于我这种悲观的人来说，确实有点难，不过我会加油的！！那，下次再聊咯。。。拜！

yesterday...

yesterday me, dino, kitty, and audrey went to a Dyslexia centre at Tabuan Dusun... at first, we were so shy and didnt even know what to do... well, for those kids who have Dyslexia, they have slow reading and slow learning problems... some of them may act like kids... although they have this problems like this but they seem to be happy... they wont because they have this kind of problems and underestimate themselves... this is what i impressed of...

we met 6 childrens... Azizul, Zhang Yao, Martin, Scott, Shanon, and Darren... we were asked to take one of them and taught them something... by the way, yesterday was the first day we been there... of course we had some communication problem with them... i took Darren who is Form 4 this year and who love High School Musical a lot... before we were waiting Mrs Yong to come... i saw him... he gave me a bad impression that he was so bad and rude... but after i communicated with him, i found that he isn't as bad as i thought... he was good... and whatever i asked him to do he will just say yes... and he was good to me... i asked him something about himself and his family... surprisingly he told me all... so i taught him read...

on the other hand, Dino was very lucky enough... he took Shanon who has same interest like him... "Enthusiatics in Airplanes"... new disease... haha... Shanon is so cute... although he is 11 years old but he look like a kindergarten kids.... so cute...

Kitty was unfortunate... she took Scott... she couldnt teach him anything since Scott was too naughty for her to look after... he like to throw things around... being scarcastics... he just cant sit quietly and listen to what Kitty had taught... Kitty seem so helpless...

Audrey took another kid whom I had forgot his name... he seem ok...

in the centre, i met my old classmate, Ke Ching... i still can recognise her... 'cause she didnt change at all... we waved to each other and said Hi! *of course*... at the end of the lesson, we thought that we had to help them to clean the class... but a teacher whom I had also forgot his name called us to stop and ask the kids to clean it up... after that, that's the end of the day... the teacher thank us and asked us whether we are going next friday... so, we, of course decided that we are going next friday... 'cause it's better stayin at home and do nothing...

i wish to see them again... and having fun together too...

the way life goes...

today... i went watch movie with friends... since this was the last time we saw michelle this year... we went for a long walk before the movie starts... then we went to eat... while eating, we tried to find some topics to talk... anyhow, we still couldnt stop talking at that topic...

before today... i talked to dino that we should make a comparison between him and her... it might help us feel better... but does it work?? i also dont know... 'cause for me, it's just a way for me to find excuse not to think about it... when it comes to reality life, it does make me feel better... so i will choose not to face it... i know that this comparison is not fair for him, 'cause this is the way he goes... i cant control him... i just can only advise him but not forcing him to the way he should have gone... i hope one day he really can understand everything single thing we did to him...

is he a best friend for you?? is he who you can depends on forever?? is he who you can trust?? i thought i can answer all of it... but now, i lost all my answer... when i try not to think about him... a message from him will just put off everything... a no-reply may make me think more... i think now i seems like healing more than frustrating... whenever he dont contact with me, i'll forget him... is he not important for you?? why you forget him?? he was important for me before... 'cause i miss last time when he WAS so good... he MADE my day whenever i had a bad mood... now, these things seem light years away... although i miss but i still dont know what to do...

when i try to give up in this game, i'll tell myself not to give up but give yourself and him a chance... he may take your last chance and change... but he made me dissapointed for times and times... he didnt realised... should i give him another chance?? i dont hope you can be perfect but at least better...

i like my life now... 'cause although it's bored... but at least i am not as frustrated as i used to be... 'cause i realised... in this world, there are more and more people who are better... like friends who i feel can accompany me to walk in my entire life... friends who are very great... very Fabulous... THEY understand me... THEY are perfect enough in my heart... THEY dont leave me alone in the dark... ... i hope everything is just not for the short time... but last longer than i think it will be...

I really Did wrong... Sorry

Yesterday... While I am chatting with Dino... Keep on thinking what had really happen to him?? why he change so suddenly?? i thought that was his mistake... as he is climbing higher, we are getting further... this is my concept... but i didnt realised that i did a lot of mistake... when i knew that he feel he was left out... my heart sank... i know that feeling... i ever came across that... it was so bad...

From last night, i realised that i am the one who is torturing him long time ago... This is what i had done so wrongly... i am not suppose to suspect him that he had change... i maybe the one who cause him to change... why everything seems repeating repeating and repeating...?? wont it just stop?? these are all my fault... i cant forgive myself since i did so many wrong... i remembered Dino said that i have to give myself a chance and try to trust myself... all i know is... when i started to give myself a chance and try to trust myself... everything gone wrong...

Sorry, friend... i dont beg for your forgiveness... 'cause this is really wrong... i didnt realised it... sorry... it's my fault... you should have been so happy around... i think you would be happier as if you didnt know me... 'cause i always abandoned you and didnt noticed you were alone that long time... sorry... i am the one who didnt appreciate you... you are too precious for me... i cant trust myself to handle it anymore... you were part of my beautiful memorise... i hope u will be happier from now on... if you feel happier when i am out of your memorise... you can just pull me out... i caused lots of frustration for you... i am sorry... i didnt mean it...

Last time, i just wanted you to change so treated you so badly... this maybe one of the excused for you... but i really wish to see you change... i thought you changed back to him... but then i realised was not you had changed... but i had abandoned you that made you feel so out when we're talking... i hope we three can have a talk together to solve this misunderstanding... but i guess... i cant as i did wrong... sorry... now i think, i should really leave you alone to give you time to think...
this told me that... i shouldnt want a person to change... i should let him freely... but not forced him or her to change... this cause pressure to that person... and leave out him or her... i'll never do it again... im sorry for everything...

Besides, i want to thank a person who taught me so many things... he taught me to be strong whatever happened... he let me know that i am not standing alone... i am really lucky to have a friends like this... this is the most most most precious present i ever had in this year... now, what i can do is wait... wait for time to solve it for me... wait for the him to think... sorry...